The true meaning of happiness is cannot be seen, but can be felt.
I was stunned by the feeling of being in love with someone so much. I didn’t expect that I’ll love a person more than I love my life. I felt I knew everything in the world, I thought I have seen everything, and I look at myself as the most gorgeous girl has ever existed. Love has really turned me into a better and wiser person.
When this boy changed me so much into a better one, I didn’t know that he’ll be my one true love. He is the opposite of everything from my ideal guy, and I understood that I was looking for the wrong one. He made me see things beyond the cover, he made me realized things I never thought existed and he surprised me something I should’ve learned a long time ago, that “Love is like a book. You have to love someone not only by the content, but also beyond the mistakes and imperfections for the next chapter.”
Well I’m just saying, I miss him, my hunn. Happy Monthsary to us and long years to come loving invisibly, by distance and infinitely.
It’s been weeks since I last had my relaxation. I got to admit, College is hard, so hard. So help me God! Anyways, I’m blogging tonight not because I’ve accomplished everything I had to finish, I’m typing because I’m missing you guys! I miss scrolling the mouse on reading your posts, I miss clicking it to like and I miss typing down my daily deeds. Am I acting exaggerating? You can blame me if I have been inactive a very long time. I’m not often sitting and face the computer, if you’d ask, because of my continues to-dos. For my future, I’m giving it all my best.
So, I’ve seen and read your posts and it envies me. Why? You were all happy and connected, and I am here, an invisible blogger; blogging for a short time and am gone again. How I hate to do this kind of route. By the way, how’d you spent your days for this month behind this screen? Are you happy and blessed? Or are you sad and left alone? Tell me, my mailbox is always open for any confrontation and conversation :)
Tonight, I’m giving myself a break which I’m going to stay online.
I want to be alone because I know no one can hurt me, no one can destroy me, and no one tells me what I should do. Being alone makes me alive; it makes me feel perfectly fine. I want to be alone because I want to know my worth. I want to be alone because I know I’ll be free, happy. I know being alone is lonely, but I feel safer. I just want to be alone.